Past, Present and Future Collide

Many years ago, I couldn't dance to save my life or really impress anyone.  My older brother tried his hardest to help me find a beat at dances.  I still struggle to find that cool down beat.  If you have seen Eddie Murphy dance like "white people" that would be me.  Years later, I was trying to help my daughter get ready for a Christmas duet.  As I helped her find her pitch, I noticed my husband chuckling in the corner.  Finally, I whipped around to ask him what his problem was. He observed I always knew my daughter was off pitch.  However, I was consistently a half-step too low.  He is not being cruel-- this is not the first time I have heard about this problem.  It was like I was calibrated wrongly at birth.  That Sunday I thought to myself think higher, think higher.  I confidently plopped myself by him and sang "high".  I smiled and said, "well?"  "Still flat." Uggggg.  

You see,  I have a secret dark list of things I never want to do because they put me in such a state of discomfort.  This is where the past and present collide the with future.  I have been asked to be music conductor/director for all the children at church.  I have only had 3 midnight panic attacks; that should be a good omen for the future.  I'd rather give a series of public speeches or perform a skit than be a music/choir person.  Are you kidding me?  Sometimes I think God thinks "you know you have skated long enough, let's give you something that will make you know who is in charge."  Ahhh, good times.