The truth---as I see it
Some thoughts:
I want to be super thankful and uplifting in blogs, but I sometimes rant and my life is not always uplifting.
I am LDS and I go to church regularly. However, that never seems to cross into my discussions here. I have some reasons. I want to swear sometimes and not be a hypocrite. I might want to mention sex (in a broad sense). Those ideas don't seem to connect. In addition, I find my faith journey to be up and down. I would worry about being a sincere person on this front. I want to be real and not be harmful in the world of LDS bloggers. (Who are we kidding? I swear almost all bloggers are LDS moms.)
I am pretty sure I complain too much. You women who go forth joyfully, I read you and I rejoice with you. Keep it up. Me? I am working on finding the funny.
I don't mention my blogging on facebook. I am afraid of people, who I truly respect (this would include older and much younger people), wondering about what they are reading. Then, I think stop, people have way too much to do to worry about a few power swears or whatnot. Yet, I am not sure I am ready for all I know from all walks of life to read this drivel. Crazy? Yup!
I can't seem to find my niche. I would love to be a super-intelligent cultural/political critic. Yet, I can't seem to stay up to speed to do that all the time. I toyed with never blogging about my kids, so I could push myself to have my own identity. But, those kids keep pulling me back. I even started another private blog that would ONLY contain deep thoughts on politics/religion/culture. So far, I have one post in five months. Well, I at least I have that going for me. In a nutshell, I clearly am a little too self-conscious and hyper-aware. At the end, I like the pleasure of empty space and a few minutes to think with it.
I want to be super thankful and uplifting in blogs, but I sometimes rant and my life is not always uplifting.
I am LDS and I go to church regularly. However, that never seems to cross into my discussions here. I have some reasons. I want to swear sometimes and not be a hypocrite. I might want to mention sex (in a broad sense). Those ideas don't seem to connect. In addition, I find my faith journey to be up and down. I would worry about being a sincere person on this front. I want to be real and not be harmful in the world of LDS bloggers. (Who are we kidding? I swear almost all bloggers are LDS moms.)
I am pretty sure I complain too much. You women who go forth joyfully, I read you and I rejoice with you. Keep it up. Me? I am working on finding the funny.
I don't mention my blogging on facebook. I am afraid of people, who I truly respect (this would include older and much younger people), wondering about what they are reading. Then, I think stop, people have way too much to do to worry about a few power swears or whatnot. Yet, I am not sure I am ready for all I know from all walks of life to read this drivel. Crazy? Yup!
I can't seem to find my niche. I would love to be a super-intelligent cultural/political critic. Yet, I can't seem to stay up to speed to do that all the time. I toyed with never blogging about my kids, so I could push myself to have my own identity. But, those kids keep pulling me back. I even started another private blog that would ONLY contain deep thoughts on politics/religion/culture. So far, I have one post in five months. Well, I at least I have that going for me. In a nutshell, I clearly am a little too self-conscious and hyper-aware. At the end, I like the pleasure of empty space and a few minutes to think with it.
Comments
My sister says my writing is too rosy and happy...that her life can't keep up. And I don't like the whole "look at how great my life is" writing either...but I am trying to find "joy in the journey" and express that. I think secretly I'm a real glass-half-empty person and this is a way for me to find the bright side.
Blah, blah, blah...I don't even really know where I'm going with this.
xoxoxo to you...hope you're having a GREAT day!